I'm Such A Fool

I'm such a fool

Past few weeks I've being making mistakes plus mistakes plus mistakes

And for past few weeks I've keep hurting her plus hurting her plus hurting her

And for past few weeks I've keep arguing with her plus arguing with her

And for past few weeks I've keep thinking what I did is right

And for past few weeks I've make you suffer plus make you suffer

And for past few weeks I've being selfish plus slefish plus selfish

And for past few weeks I've forgotten my responsibility

And for past few weeks I've misunderstand you plus super misunderstand

And for past few weeks I've being a fool of myself

And for past few weeks I've done something I should not do

And now I would like take this chance in to post my most sincere apology to her in my blog and I don't know jerk like me should be forgiven or not

Im so so sorry,

For trying to argue with you

As I'm trying to get your attention

Im so so sorry,

For making you suffer with tears every night

As Im keep mentioning our past

Im so so sorry,

For trying to make you jealous

As I just wanna know how much you love me

Im so so sorry,

For always ask you the same question

As i already know you hate it

Im so so sorry,

For offended you last few night

As Im jeaslous of them

Im so so sorry,

For making you emo over and over again

Although I promised to make you happy

Im so so sorry,

For being such a jerk when you need me

As I always make you get even sad

Im so so sorry,

For making this even tougher for you

As I don't wanna lose you

Im so so sorry,

For bugging you when you are busy

Although I knew you have your own reason

Im so so sorry,

For doubting you and stuff

As Im jealous again when I see you two together

Im so so sorry,

For making you fell so deep for me

As Im just a jerk

Im so so sorry,

For not behaving before you leave for your study

As you told me that you wanna concentrate on your study

Im so so sorry,

For not being understanding for you

Making you feel even sad

Im so so sorry

For trying to make you feel guilty

As I don't want you to leave me

Im so so sorry,

For making you tears in the middle of the night and sleep late

Im just too selfish

Im so so so sorry,

For everything I did that hurt you a lot

As I dint think the consequences thoroughly

Im such a fool

Thinking so far and so much while the angel is standing beside me

And Im still doubting it

Im such a fool

For being so selfish

Without thinking of you

Im such a fool

For being so childish

When you need me the most

As time flew by

It shows me that

The real bad guy was me

I realised this when I was about to lose you forever

Perhaps its too late for me to realised this

But

I don't want you to hate me

I don't want you to ignore me

I don't want you to forget me

I don't want we become enemy

These past few weeks

I've being nothing but jerk to you

I just keep sulking like Im a baby

Thats what I do

And now on 19/5/09 6.09pm

Im not shy to say that Im crying the hell out of myself

I know perhaps its too late

But thats what I was doing now

I cant control it

What I know deep down in my heart

Is I love her very very much

And I cant imagine how much

I can only cry over the spilled milk

And I just hope she can forgive me

I never betray her love

Dint think of it even once

She is one in the millions of the person i care most in my list

I don't know what should I write further

I need to catch a breath as Im grasping for air now

Im sorry

I messed everything up

Hope you forgive me

Anyone who see this

Please criticize me and scold me to make myself better

Love WJ